Once upon a time (about three years ago) I was in a very difficult place. I had just given birth to my stillborn daughter, Amelia, and became pregnant with my first rainbow baby. It was an experience I blogged about, because I quickly realized that the thrill of pregnancy now was an experience full of fear ~ kind of like walking on a tightrope over hell.
I desperately missed the happiness ~ the anticipation of meeting this new little baby, but instead all I could manage was a luke-warm hope that this baby would live. I needed a place (not my very public blog) to unveil my fears and feelings so that I could begin to bond without judgement to this new life. I craved a place where I could talk about Amelia (whom I was still very much grieving) while still trying to navigate an entirely different pregnancy.
This new journal “Expecting a Rainbow ~ a journal especially designed for pregnancy after loss” is the compilation of my own needs and grief work. I worked hard to create something that is missing in the world right now . . . a journal that helps break the silence of child loss and embraces the reality of pregnancy after loss.
This journal incorporates spaces for all your children in one place ~ the baby that should be with you and the baby you are carrying. It is designed purposefully for anyone who has experienced one or more losses (miscarriage, stillbirth, and infant loss). These are spaces for the big brother(s) and sister(s) whose lives were all too short, but no less real.
Here is a peek at some of the pages inside. To purchase this journal or others in the collection ~ visit the shop.